Caught Up?

I missed a whole week's worth of posts from before Christmas until around New Year's. I was swamped so sorry! I won't get caught up on those. :(

But I did catch up on the past couple of days. I didn't comment much, but I did read the posts. I have to reply to people now.

I see the SPN continues to convert people on my flist. Welcome aboard!

And how come no one told me that the SPN folks gave us two little gifts? I saw the clips collage for the next upcoming eps, but then we also had a little Ghostfacers short? So cute! I'm not a huge Ghostfacers fan, especially when they take over everything - hello GUEST stars - but since I like Ghost Hunters and anything that parodies that show, the Ghostfacers have a special place in my heart ;)

Also, debating whether to see Jensen's and then Jared's movies coming out. I like the horror genre, but I'm not big on slasher flicks.

*ponders*

Being Cool in Fandom

When the Old Year ends and the New Year begins, I do thinky things. I don't always follow through, but it's a good time for reflection anyway. I expect many of these types of posts over the few days.

I talked a little bit about this before, but it's always something on my mind so I'll talk a bit about it again.

I tend to be a very reserved person. Part of it is my nature and part of it has been shaped by circumstances over the years. Only once I get to know someone do many of those walls crumble. Even then, I can get guarded with people that have known me for a while. I'm always on the defensive to protect myself.

There is a fun, vibrant person inside and that person doesn't get to come out and play much, whether due to insecurities, low self-esteem, fear of confrontation or any number of factors. Like I said, I focus so hard on pleasing people and keeping the peace that I often get lost along the way.

One of my goals is to be more self-confident this year. Now I say this every year and every year I still struggle with it, but I think I get a little bit better as I get older. That also means allowing myself to be comfortable enough with stating my opinion without fear of backlash, hurting someone's feelings, or getting attacked for it. I don't expect to become a full out bitch – I'm far too sensitive to other people for that – but I can't keep living in this self-imposed prison I've created either.

And that goes for fandom as well.

( Thoughts on Being Cool In Fandoms )

ETA: Completely off-topic, we're discussing diaper pants in the comments. Surely some of you know what diaper pants are. I keep looking online for a picture and I can't find any! They are *not* the same as Hammer/parachute pants. Grr.