I'm sure they could have shown that Sam is a guy without... THAT. *shudder*
I agree that Dean's resentment has been building up for a long time. Just the fact that John ditched him with barely a word when he'd always done everything John ever wanted him to do... that would be enough to make him doubt that his father loved him, right there. But yeah, it was when John told him he might have to kill Sam that he really started acknowledging it. Smashing the car at the end of Everybody Loves a Clown really has a deeper meaning now that we know what's been going through Dean's head. He sees the car as an extension of his father, which is probably why he took out his anger on the Impala rather than any of the other random cars that were around him.
But I agree, Dean definitely still loves his father. Heck, I've raged about (and to) my parents on several occasions, but I still love them. Deep down I blame them for some of the things that have happened to me, so if I was in a situation where my inner self was taunting me like Dean's was, I'm sure some pretty nasty things would be said about them... but that doesn't mean I consciously hold it against them. I've forgiven, I just haven't forgotten, you know? I think Dean's more or less forgiven his dad, it's just that he used to think John was this powerful, infallible being that was way better than he could ever be, and now he's all disillusioned about him and doesn't know what to think anymore. Or something like that. I think I've lost track of what I was trying to say...
Yes, I give, Dean is awesome. I just wish he'd BE awesome rather than trying to cover it up with stupidness and sarcasm. :P
The bit with Sam... it was kind of a distorted version of the crucifix pose, which I read as symbolism for the antichrist thing. Oh, and something I forgot to mention... how did he get into Jeremy's head when he hadn't taken any of his "body"? He drank Dean's hair, not Jeremy's. He shouldn't have been able to get into Jeremy's head at all. Hmmmmmm...
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Date: 2008-02-14 02:20 am (UTC)I agree that Dean's resentment has been building up for a long time. Just the fact that John ditched him with barely a word when he'd always done everything John ever wanted him to do... that would be enough to make him doubt that his father loved him, right there. But yeah, it was when John told him he might have to kill Sam that he really started acknowledging it. Smashing the car at the end of Everybody Loves a Clown really has a deeper meaning now that we know what's been going through Dean's head. He sees the car as an extension of his father, which is probably why he took out his anger on the Impala rather than any of the other random cars that were around him.
But I agree, Dean definitely still loves his father. Heck, I've raged about (and to) my parents on several occasions, but I still love them. Deep down I blame them for some of the things that have happened to me, so if I was in a situation where my inner self was taunting me like Dean's was, I'm sure some pretty nasty things would be said about them... but that doesn't mean I consciously hold it against them. I've forgiven, I just haven't forgotten, you know? I think Dean's more or less forgiven his dad, it's just that he used to think John was this powerful, infallible being that was way better than he could ever be, and now he's all disillusioned about him and doesn't know what to think anymore. Or something like that. I think I've lost track of what I was trying to say...
Yes, I give, Dean is awesome. I just wish he'd BE awesome rather than trying to cover it up with stupidness and sarcasm. :P
The bit with Sam... it was kind of a distorted version of the crucifix pose, which I read as symbolism for the antichrist thing. Oh, and something I forgot to mention... how did he get into Jeremy's head when he hadn't taken any of his "body"? He drank Dean's hair, not Jeremy's. He shouldn't have been able to get into Jeremy's head at all. Hmmmmmm...