I totally agree about Dream. The Daniel/Vala Sam/Bela thing was just stupid, though I explained it away to myself as Bela trying out the dream root. She did say when she walked in that it's "nasty stuff," which means she must have tried it at some point.
But the Dean stuff... ohhhhhh my gosh. That is SO how I've always thought of Dean - he's tried all his life to be just like Daddy, with the car and the music and his attitude towards hunting and everything, and he's starting to resent it.
What you said about having a lot to digest after watching it is exactly right - I had to turn the TV off and just sit and think for the longest time after I watched it, and then I watched it a couple more times, LOL! It was just PACKED with character development for both Bobby and Dean, and DANG was it ever heartbreaking stuff. Loved getting to know Bobby a little better (incidentally, I went back and watched the entire series again this past week, and Bobby's expression at the end of BUABS made me cry), and finding out what Dean really thinks of himself. The comment that he "looks in the mirror and hates what he sees..." DUDE. That hurt me. Because despite the arrogance and over-confidence, you can totally see it.
When he exploded about his dad, though, I started crying for John's sake. Why would Dean think his dad didn't care whether he lived or died?? Because he didn't respond when Sam called him in Faith? That's the only thing I can think of, because dude... John SOLD HIS SOUL to save Dean's life!! Of course, then he turned around and laid the burden of having to kill Sam on him, which is probably when the resentment started. Dean would rather die than kill Sam, that's for sure. So yeah, his rant makes sense in a lashing-out-in-frustration kind of way, and I'm SO glad he used the dream as a catharsis for all his self-loathing and wants to end it, but still... it hurt. (But DANG did JA do demon!Dean well!!!! :P)
I loved that it was Lisa on the picnic blanket ("Gumby girl" from The Kids Are Alright, btw... Ben's mother). I've thought all along that all Dean wants is a family and people who love him unconditionally, and that just confirmed that for me. He wants to be a dad! Aww!! And have picnics and take his boy to baseball! I think John knew that about him all along, you know... in Salvation, he was listing all the things that he wanted, and one was "for Dean to have a home." Dean glanced over at Sam with this vulnerable look on his face like, "Hope Sammy didn't hear that, that is so uncool..." Poor Dean. ;)
Speaking of Sam... was it from Dean's head that the crucifix-pose came from, I wonder? Hmm...
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Daniel/ValaSam/Bela thing was just stupid, though I explained it away to myself as Bela trying out the dream root. She did say when she walked in that it's "nasty stuff," which means she must have tried it at some point.But the Dean stuff... ohhhhhh my gosh. That is SO how I've always thought of Dean - he's tried all his life to be just like Daddy, with the car and the music and his attitude towards hunting and everything, and he's starting to resent it.
What you said about having a lot to digest after watching it is exactly right - I had to turn the TV off and just sit and think for the longest time after I watched it, and then I watched it a couple more times, LOL! It was just PACKED with character development for both Bobby and Dean, and DANG was it ever heartbreaking stuff. Loved getting to know Bobby a little better (incidentally, I went back and watched the entire series again this past week, and Bobby's expression at the end of BUABS made me cry), and finding out what Dean really thinks of himself. The comment that he "looks in the mirror and hates what he sees..." DUDE. That hurt me. Because despite the arrogance and over-confidence, you can totally see it.
When he exploded about his dad, though, I started crying for John's sake. Why would Dean think his dad didn't care whether he lived or died?? Because he didn't respond when Sam called him in Faith? That's the only thing I can think of, because dude... John SOLD HIS SOUL to save Dean's life!! Of course, then he turned around and laid the burden of having to kill Sam on him, which is probably when the resentment started. Dean would rather die than kill Sam, that's for sure. So yeah, his rant makes sense in a lashing-out-in-frustration kind of way, and I'm SO glad he used the dream as a catharsis for all his self-loathing and wants to end it, but still... it hurt. (But DANG did JA do demon!Dean well!!!! :P)
I loved that it was Lisa on the picnic blanket ("Gumby girl" from The Kids Are Alright, btw... Ben's mother). I've thought all along that all Dean wants is a family and people who love him unconditionally, and that just confirmed that for me. He wants to be a dad! Aww!! And have picnics and take his boy to baseball! I think John knew that about him all along, you know... in Salvation, he was listing all the things that he wanted, and one was "for Dean to have a home." Dean glanced over at Sam with this vulnerable look on his face like, "Hope Sammy didn't hear that, that is so uncool..." Poor Dean. ;)
Speaking of Sam... was it from Dean's head that the crucifix-pose came from, I wonder? Hmm...